I like your advice and yeah most phones are stupid even though they are called smart. LOL

On your advice I have to say that isn't childish at all. When you said (if my bf asks how I am doing; I feel he is trying to push my buttons again because I am still upset at the time. I will and have just nodded with no response, but never waited to cool down to give a response so I am still angry! I don't know if this is clear how I am saying it. LOL

I just totally ignore most of my daughters remarks. Sometimes I respond but if I don't respond the way she wants it then she acts all ignorant and I just want to slap her so I start yelling. She is very disrespectful and when she gets together with her dad, (my BF) I feel like they are ganging up on me. Most of the time I walk away in anger (sometimes hurting myself) but I have yelled a lot and according to them to and a lot of other family members I just yell. I feel like I am talking excitedly. I just feel I can't trust even my own family sometimes.

I am just so scared it might be me and I just don't know to communicate. I am afraid I am going to end up alone most of the time. My BF says he wants to be with me and says he loves me. My daughter says I don't trust people that loveme. I am so freakin confused.

Thank you for your response, I will think about how I react more.