Let me just start by saying I don't know for sure that I have ADHD...but my dr mentioned ADHD when I told him some things going on in my life a few months ago, aswell as bipolar. I don't know what exactly is wrong with me, but I know SOMETHING is definately going on, and I need to get it figured out asap because it's really interfering with work, to the point that I don't want to go to work anymore, and dread going every single day.

As a side note, mental illness runs in my family. My mom has ADHD, is taking meds for depression, and I also believe she is bipolar but it's undiagnosed. My family dr also recently told my sister he thinks she could be bipolar and we were both diagnosed with depression. (I have been on Lamotrigine for months now, I can't remember when I started, my sister just started on it)

Poor listening skills - I'm terrible at listening to people. For example, if I am on my computer and my sister comes out to talk to me, I am still trying to focus on my computer and either ignore her or half listen. I feel bad because it seems like I don't care. Also when my mom calls I do the same thing and just say "uh huh, yea," etc.
At work, my manager tells me things when I am either doing something else or thinking about something and then later she will say "I told you this..." and either I can't remember her ever telling me that, or I suddenly remember and all I can say is "I forgot" It always seems again, like I don't care or am purposely not listening.
My dad once asked my family dr to check my ears because I seem to have trouble hearing. I thought he was kidding, but he was serious.
Forgetfulness - I lose EVERYTHING. Every time I leave the house I have to stop and think about what I am forgetting. I go to work and a lot of the time I forgot a part of my uniform, something I need for work etc. I feel like a child.
I always forget something when I get home from visiting my mom or dad.
It's a joke in my family now that I am so forgetful.
I forget plans I made ALL.THE.TIME. Ill make plans to get together with friends on friday and then a few days later make plans to visit my mom on the same day. I usually don't realize it until that day.
Distractability -My manager give me a task to do. I'm doing it when suddenly I remember something I forgot to do or need to do right away, the I forget what I was originally doing and start doing something else and then my manager comes out and I get in trouble because I didn't finish the task she gave me.
Feeling flustered - In a high paced situation, like when it gets really busy (I work in fast food)I get very flustered and find myself running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. I find it insanely difficult to handle customers sometimes. I can't multitask. It's really hard to explain but I always feel like an idiot. I constantly feel like I can't do my job. I am trying to find a different job because my boss is a ***** who yells at us and pushes my buttons all the time, yesterday I almost blew up at someone, and by the end of my shift was almost in tears.
Mood swings - I am constantly in a bad mood, or if I am in a good mood my sister (who I live with) can make me go from good mood to pissed off just like that. We will fight and she always tells me I'm in a bad mood, which pisses me off because I'm not. I can also just explode over nothing.
Sometimes when I am talking to my mom on the phone, or with the guy I am seeing, I get annoyed with what they are saying/doing, even though there is no reason to be annoyed. Then I am in a bad mood and just want them to go away.
Right now, I am just very irritable and just want to curl up in a ball and sleep all day (which I can't because I have a 2 year old)
One thing that has always been an issue for me, even in school is that I can become interested in something, read about it, research it and be very knowledgable on a certain topic. BUT if I am trying to explain it to someone else, I can't. Like for example I have been researching bipolar/ADHD symptoms/info for awhile now and this past weekend I was telling my mom and my step dad that I think I have bipolar and ADHD and they asked what the symptoms were. I KNOW what the symptoms are but I forgot, so I had to look it up to explain it to them.
I am just really bad at explaining things, I have to have everything written down in front of me or I forget. I know that probably sounds wierd.
Slow to understand - My boss will try to explain something to me and I just don't understand what she is trying to say, and I feel so stupid when I tell her I don't understand. She gets frustrated with me and then I just feel more stupid. My mom has always told me I am so smart, but I have always thought that it's just something a mom says to her daughter because I am NOT smart...I have always felt dumb. Take this post for example...it's all over the place an not organized at all. I was always bad at essays in school, I couldn't write an essay to save my life.
I also seem to have trouble following instructions. I forget what I am doing/where I am going when I walk into a room. While at the mall, I can be on my way somewhere and forget 2-3 times where it is I am going.
I have developed quite a temper over the last few years. For example yesterday at work I was so annoyed with my manager, coworkers, and customers in the mall (boxing day sales, A LOT of people) I felt like a volcano about to explode. I can go from 1 to 10 in 2 seconds. It doesn't take much to annoy me AT ALL.
So if you've read this far, thank you. I know I can't blame ADHD for every symptom, but I believe they could be a mix of ADHD, Biplor and Depression.
I have a dr appt on January 3rd and I plan on asking him to refer me to a therapist or something, because I can't keep living like this. I may chicken out though, I am very shy and sometimes feel intimidated by authority figures.