alisandria thankyou for yor reply

today i feel alittle better , he rang me at work today to meet for lunch i declined as i could feel the bad temper forming on the phone just speaking to him , he sent me a bunch of flowers to cheer me up considering i don't deserve them after the way i treated him last night , i did promise this morning i would not be in a bad mood tonight , i am managing to hold it so far, but i feel so sick with worry that i can't seem to eat.

he has asked his probation officer to find me some help with my abuse which he feels is the cause for my behavior lately

keep well