I've been having lots of bad days lately. i wont go so far as to say its because of talking about sa. I'm not sure if its even connected. i just feel trapped in life though. Ugly. unwanted. and uncared for. I feel pain that I told someone (about my secret) and now its out there floating in my environment. I feel sad i have no one to comfort me (no close friends). I feel overwhelmed with life . I really need to cry to get it all out. Problem is that I have a hard time crying., but i really want to. Is it bad to want to cry in front of someone (or with someone). I've never had that experience. I want to cry so bad.