May Trigger







I decided I needed to sit down for a bit here . I've been working to get dinner done for tonight when my inlaws come over.. And I thought I would read the paper real quick. Why? Why did I do that???? Inside the first page was a picture of one of the guys that raped me. The anniversary of his death is coming up this week and his family put in a memorium of him. How wonderful he was and how much he is missed. Little do they know the monster he was to rape a ten yr old girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Along with my brother and two other teen boys!!!!!!!!! I cannot ever see how he could have changed that much!!!!!!! I cant even see it in my brother that much!!!!!!!! I was trying so hard to stay happy and positive for tonight and this blew it all to pieces. Ijust dont know if I can make it thru dinner with out crying now. Do I just excuse myself if this happens? I dont want to sit there with them and explain it all.