i often feel as you do, i look around me and everyone is going somewhere with their lives and i am stuck in this h hole fighting for every little basic need. I never realised how life could change so dramatically until i became ill, never understood how someone can be totally alone in the world, but now i understand it, it is down to all those 'I'm all right Jacks' who look so happy but are really so shallow that they do not see or acknowledge when a friend is in need, and most of them would not be able to cope with half of what you have had to deal with. Unfortunately we have generated a throw away society, if its broke, dump it, unfortunately people are now doing the same with people, if something goes wrong in them they are dumped!