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Originally Posted by MidnightLetter
I was so angry at myself. And scared. I slept with my emotional abusive ex boyfriend. He "won". Why would I let him? I wanted to feel pain. So, first I purged thinking I could get relief but that wasn't enough. I took my shaver and slashed the skin on my leg until I bled. This was the first time I EVER caused myself to bleed. I'm worried that if I had the guts to do it once... I'll have the guts to do it again.
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Midnight,
Your instincts are correct. Once you draw blood, it becomes easier next time. SI rarely gets better on its own. Usually it gets worse. If your boyfriend is abusive, he doesn't love or care for you. Don't be suckered into his appologies, they are temporary and not real. Being in an abusive relationship is a hard habit to break. Even though it causes pain, people tend to then pick the same kind of person again and again even though they don't like abuse. You are too good for this guy. Don't let him ruin your life. Its just not worth it.
Sam2