Thank you all, for your support! You are my shelter in the raging storm!
The meeting went pretty well, I think. Everyone knows what they have been told to take care of. Lets hope that they all do what they are supposed to do!
It was a very draining meeting! Exposing yourself and the entire family... We were 11 persons gathered... 2 missing. Those 2 not being there... NOT GOOD... because they are the psychologists at the children's psychiatric centre. So we'll need to set up another meeting, them being there.
Well, I don't have energy enough to tell you more about what happened and was decided at the meeting, right now.
My hubby and I have just had a "rough" conversation... He's bottling it all up... and after several months he lets it out. That is so hard on me! I need him to talk more, to let me know how he's feeling and what's on his mind. It's tearing me apart, him being so silent!
I told him, that it feels like we're only together trying to help our son. Where is the love??? Where are WE?

We're going under... so may the help come quick, when it comes to our son and daughter. Me myself having Asperger and OCD is one more problem... in all this... I haven't got time to work on myself, as it is now.
All this, make me feel like a loser... a failure...
I try... I try... but it's never enough!

I love my family so very much, I really do! But... living is tough under these circumstances! It wasn't supposed to be like this... building a family... But... yes.... there are those having an even harder time coping in life.

My biggest fear is that my son one day will end up killing his own sister out of pure frustration and emotion. When he is in the middle of an outburst... he doesn't know how strong he is and it's very hard reaching him. So getting help is really urgent!!!

Thank you for reading! Thank you for being here for me!

Hugs to all of you!!!

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