I can relate to how you feel. I, too, am in a similar situation. Have been with bf off and on for 12 years now, since I moved here. At one point, we lived together, tried it a couple of times. The second time was because I lost my job and couldn't pay rent. Thought at first he would be a good role model for my son, who was 4 when we got together, but it ended up being an abusive relationship at that time because he is older than me and did not understand my bipolar. I broke up with him and started dating someone else, but he never went away, so now that I'm not with the other man anymore, he is still here. He has mellowed out, deals with me much better, but still is a co-dependent relationship. I am making plans to move back to my hometown in FL, out of the mountains as well, as you stated, not an easy place for a single mom to live in the mountains. No jobs, no opportunities. If you feel anger and resentment toward the bf, I would say it's time to get out. Make arrangements to pay him back so you don't owe him anything, and make plans to do what is best for you and your son. If he is around people on meth, that is clearly not a good environment for your child and you need to get out. Also, staying with someone you don't like just builds on already negative feelings and eventually pervades everything in your life, making you more depressed.