Things are progressing slowly. I have been having dreams, reocurring ones from a long time ago. It is odd that I can still remember them like it was yesterday. But right now she is looking at what I dream as a picture of what is going on inside of my brain. Some of the things I dream are of my H hurting me, arguing w/ my H and my H forcing me to do things I don't want to. Other times I dream of being trapped, of mazes, similar abuse from other men, it is difficult ot try to get along w/ my H durring the waking hours but to have my sleep haunted by him makes things even more difficult.

The T doesn't say alot right now. I can only right what I need to tell her about this subject. At times I can't do that. She has told me to write the difficult parts tiny and the "normal" parts like usual. The angry and frustrating parts big. So right now it is not something we can talk talk about.