Hi everyone. Well I went for my first psychotherapy session today after my initial assessment and I cried and cried all the way through. I want to so heal and get better from terrible emotional abuse from my mother, I know its going to be a long road to disentangle from her but I am prepared to do absolutely anything now. I have to try and pace myself a bit better in therapy, I talked loads as well, I just wanted to offload all the crap basically.

I feel so alone I have an ache in my stomach and feel lost and so sad, but very very angry at her too. All kinds of emotions. I am married to a wonderful man who has stood by me through all this and we have two great kids, one of whom has special needs.

Its been a long road and have only just found out too that my neice has been suffering from abuse by her mother - its bringing up old wounds - I so feel for her but can't help her right now.

Thanks for listening, its good to share.