It's not the BP that "made me do it"....

I was at the Ex's apartment getting my Boy's good mattresses and beds (that she took when she moved out of the house a year ago). She has been claiming that she is BROKE. What did I find? An expensive dinning room set... A flat screen TV... and Pictures of her and her Homewrecker of a GF (Yes, GF!!!) all Lovey-Dovey..... I had to break down the bunk beds and get stuff done.... I was crying like a baby.... Hating her and loving her all at the same time... It's been well over a year and I'm not over her.... I thought I was finally getting there, but I'm not.

So, my first reaction, is to start smashing stuff..... I didn't. It took every ounce of self control I had, but I didn't. The in-laws showed up late (I had asked that they be there instead of the ex... we WERE on very good terms)... and immediately started *****ing at me.... I asked them to leave.... Please!!!! They kept *****ing and I lost my temper.... I yelled, they yelled..... Nothing physical thank GOD..... They left and I was an absolute mess. I had to go to the HomeDepot and rent a truck after having been crying my eyes out for close to an hour....

I got everything done.... Then the next day, I decided to write up a an E-mail to them.... It was a vent piece. I didn't send it. I DID post it on a divorce support forum.... that the SIL is on... her hubby posted just as long a piece about how i'm an asshole (He's probably right).... So the vent piece that they weren't supposed to see, they have seen.... FML....