I don't know why, but sometimes I have panicky thoughts centred around a strong desire to change. Everything should be okay, but I cannot help but feel as though something is wrong, and that I need to make drastic alterations to my life. I don't necessarily know what needs to happen, but I start to get upset, and pretty soon my whole day is ruined. This hasn't been happening lately, and for that I'm thankful.

Now something worse is happening, and I'm afraid that it signifies the degradation of my mind. I am starting to get anxious in public to the point where I must gag/throw up. Sometimes it happens at school, and sometimes it happens when I'm around large crowds of people (at the mall or Walmart for example). It starts as an awful, horrible feeling in my chest, and it continues to rise until I feel nauseous. It makes me feel terrible, and honestly, I'm starting to feel upset just writing about it.

Do you think that this is anxiety? If this is anxiety, how do you deal with it? I want to learn how to cope with this problem, so that it doesn't shut down my life when it happens.