Thank you everyone.
all of you are doing more than enough just by listening to my ranting and telling me Im not totally off base.
Ive gotten a little sleep though not much I feel a bit more centered. Called for a pdoc appointment when I woke up. Still have power (yay!) and if they hold off until the end of the week i should get my check and be able to give something. Churches - no luck so far, but I have been trying. Ive only tried three so far as well as sally anns, so I intend to keep trying.
I am going to mass hug you all because there are simply so many of you who responded.

for all of you.
I think today was the culmination(sp) of about three weeks worth of stress. sort of a popping, if you will.
I am off to try and nap again. Thanks again guys.