@Thunder Bow. This interpretation would make sense if I was having it in my adult years. But this was a recurring dream in my childhood. When I was child, I just wanted to be acknowledged, I barely had a grasp of "self" to feel like I was running away from it.

I'm starting to think that the force is symbolic of the disconnect I feel with socializing with people or maybe an omen that this is my future fate- never having connected with anyone at all.