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Originally Posted by OrangeMoira
As a child, you think that the chaos in your life is somehow your fault or something you can control. You can try to be invisible, try to be perfect, try to make others happy, act out. It won't work. Abuser logic is slippery--they make you feel wrong so they don't have to face their actions.
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You're absolutely right about trying to make people happy all the time. I get anxious and afraid when I don't make people happy. I hate to disappoint people. Afraid of what their reactions are going to be.
And I do try to be invisible. I don't have a social life because of that. I only have three friends and they are out of state. The rest of my "friends" are people I connected with online or I met through my husband.
I always felt like I could do nothing right. My parents always wanted me to do what they wanted me to do. Even now. I'm tired of it.
As a child, I was always by myself reading. Either hiding in a tree or underneath my covers on my bed.