Hi Phigment! I know just what you mean about the drained, no energy feeling. It takes a lot of energy to always be watching out for how other people will react to you. I have always needed time outs from socializing.

I.Am.The.End, I find it easier to stay in character, too. I don't know whether it's positive-- "fake it til you make it"-- or if it's something I should try to break through. Probably both--good if I need it, but maybe one day I won't. It was nice to offer to PM people. I think that will help some folks who may be able to read but find it hard to post. I personally am scared to PM but am working on it! Now, chat...maybe never!!

Torn, awesome job recognizing and struggling with the "hide in a hole" feeling. Thanks for posting so consistently (but no pressure to always do it!!!).

Blue Coral, do you think the retail job helped you desensitize over time? I am thinking of trying a part time retail job while I look for full time work so that I'm forced to talk to people. In the past, it was good for me, but that was also when I was in full-on "please everyone even if it hurts me" mode. I'm a little more self-protective now and am afraid I could relapse if things get bad.

Hello, TwoSons & SilentlyCrying & Twice (& Call me Chris & ajtgjm & girlwithbrownhair & Slenderwoman & quizzickle & shortandcute & sunsetsunrise & anyone who may have posted in this section before this month!)!! Hugs to the AvPD'ers and supporters on New Year's Eve!

I am staying in to watch Doctor Who, and I am celebrating actually sending two resumes to possible (but unlikely) employers. Yay! Have a nice and peaceful night.