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Originally Posted by BonnieJean
When you have felt like this before and called t can you remember what it was that made you feel better? What reassurance she gave you? Can you try to recreate any good feelings you get from your work with her? Has she given you any advise in dealing with these scary thoughts?
If you did get a hold of t tonight think about what you would tell her about what is going on and imagine the best possible answer from her. What would help you the most from her?
If you still have the email address somewhere maybe you can try writing to her to help you deal with the feelings even though she probably won't answer until Wednesday at the earliest. T's can usually sense when you really need them and you won't be crossing any boundaries right then. YOu're right about needing to get the boundaries straightened out the next time you get a chance.
It is good that you know your parents would never do that. Maybe you can try to ground yourself a bit by repeating that and remembering good times with your parents. Try smiling to try to bring on a positive feeling. Do you have a pet you can show special attention to? I know that these scary thoughts are not easy to overcome and I'm not suggesting something simple will help but I'm trying to think of things that you might try...
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Talking to my t generally just helps. She's really kind and just hearing her voice makes me feel better. Sometimes she changes the subject to calm me down and sometimes we talk it out and breathe deeply. Writing emails to her makes me feel better, so maybe I could write out what I would say like you said and save it as a draft or something or print it for when I can contact her. She tells me to be with people, or go for a walk and to use substitutes for harming myself like the ice thing and snapping rubber bands, and to do something for someone else which I usually don't have the energy for.
I feel better and less scared because you guys are hearing me out and letting me know I'm not crazy.
I do have a dog that I spend a lot of time with and he's always kind of helped me.
EDIT: I've never thought people were out to get me before tonight, so that's a totally new feeling for me that my t (obviously) doesn't know about. That's what's making me uneasy. I've never felt this way before. I think they're here and I wonder how they'll get me. That's what worries me.