I am a loner - I push people away from me. But then I long for human interaction. I have always only been able to have one friend at a time. Which makes it super duper lonely when I have a disagreement with that one friend and I choose to punish them by distancing myself - which really only punishes me.
But I can't help it - I have currently been distancing myself from my bff for the past year or so. She asked me to email her tonight and I am purposefully not emailing her. I know nothing I am doing is punishing to her - she has replaced me - and I'm pretending to be alright without her. . . but I am so lonely. I really need to get over myself - I believe she would take me back as her bff. I might try though - make it my new years resolution to get over it. . .