I've always been a bit sentimental and weepy... movies, tv, stories... I'm an emotional guy and that never bothered me ever. Then, suddenly, I allowed this one emotional moment last week take me away... I just got lost in it and suddenly I can't escape it.

I was sitting happily watching TV with my daughter amazed at how this little girl was growing up so fast and so wonderfully that I got weepy that the days of her sitting on my lap, loving me and needing me were going to end soon and I got a bit weepy (not the first time, but usually it was a good feeling... pride tinged with some nostalgia and regret).

But then... it snowballed... big time. Next thing I know my heart is racing, my chest is chenching, my head is sweating... I have to get up... I have to walk... I have to run... to breathe. I have to cry body racking sobs... and then it passes. I'm OK... but then I start to worry again... were those thoughts real? Any I going to be lonely again? And the cycle starts again.

I went to bed fine that night only to wake up early with another attack. Since then I've come close... I can breathe my way past it and make it through... but I still feel soooo down in the dumps over this. I know how irrational it is... but I can't figure out WHY this is overwhelming me so badly!