thanks for the feedback everyone...

I swear if I don't find myself soon I'm gonna crack up more than ever.

feel like I've got 'personality dementia'

...there is nuthin' real inside to grip onto.
it's doin' my head in..I feel bad all the time about just everything....

and the only things that I understand are anger and absurdity and foolishness.

I'm so sick of feeling guilty about being a dickhead!