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Jan 01, 2013, 07:59 AM
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Member Since: Dec 2012
Location: On the wrong planet!
Posts: 20
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Originally Posted by Michelle25
How did you manage to "completely drop out of life"? I'm curious as that actually sounds good to me. Do you have a therapist?  |
I hit a real low point in my life, it was a very painful time and after that all hopes of the life I thought I would have were gone. I live at home, as I always have, so I just shut the door so to speak and suffered.
I guess there are some appealing things about shutting down, the pain does not touch you as much after awhile. You worry less about how you look and what others might think of you, but that is just because I dont go out much. Its right there waiting for me as soon as I step out that door. Time blurs after awhile. Now this I really like, the last few years seem like they never happened. In fact I say few years but its been more like 9.
My health has certainly gone down hill. I guess thats not a good thing huh. Well it brings death closer. Speaking of that I have pretty much given up on the ideal of suicide. That could be a plus or a minus depending on how you look at it, but I figure I am here to suffer and in the scheme of things what's a another 10 or 20 years, what ever I have left.
I do have a therapist but she is just a young thing that has no ideal of my world. She lives in a entirely different world, but I guess we all live in our own worlds to a degree. Mine is just on the outer reaches where its cold an lonely
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