Shattered, Lady Zero, you are both echoing the same thoughts Ive been having, coupled with some bouts of rage...Why me?? all those innocent poeple who have normal lives to lead,a future to work toward, why not me whom has not forsight toward a future?? Take my life not thiers!!
"I'm hardly the voice of optimism, wallowing here myself, totally alone" I agree with your train of thought LadyZero,
The reality reamains,WE are here and for what ever purpose..and I hate the thought of you hurting the same way I am..
The same way many of us are hurting..REmember you are not alone first and foremost.
I bet when you think about it truthfully, I bet there are alot of people who care about you, who are gald to know you,who have learned alot from you...just as I have these same blessings..
My new years started off ranting, my sisters got me laughing, reassuring me they love me...it lifted all that anger, allowed me to play and laugh..give them a chance..transpire the negative thoughts to anything other, than whats self destructive...YOU CAN DO IT!!
Good luck Shattered..conqure those demons! We are with you in spirit and prayer..