Thanks Lisa for sharing and helping me have a positive atitude. There are times that I do feel alone, as though I'm the only one who wants to distance myself from that lifestyle. There's nothing wrong with the choices that my friend have made, I do hope she's taking care of herself . Yes you are right when you say that I am putting my heath first. I feel as thought I'm having to start over and find a couple of new friends who does have the same interest as mine, and well its a little akward to do I suppose. Meeting causal friends to talk about class is simply but approaching people about, lets go see a movie or having lunch is another thing. Do you understand what I mean?