I also would like to extend much Gratitude for your service to our country..no one can take that away from you,your experience..all of them, millitarymach, has spoken.
You are not a failer, you are not a looser,God knows I feel that way everyday..till my mom neds my help.
I can tell by what you wrote there's a bunch of bad stuff going on with you,,another saying goes "All things Will Come To Pass" Hang in there . this I promise will too.when the time is right, the person is right,things will happen for you...but you got to stop thinking so lowley of yourseld,
BTW, Im gonna take my own advice here too.

.It seems when one finally gives just about up, thats when the phone calls, and emails start pouring in...love and let go.It will happen in the Creators time,not our own time .go punch a bag in the meantime!! LOL
when you paint that smile on your face, it becomes infections,
Condiser this, those job apps were just not the job our highter being needed you to be in..to work through you..