I am trying to see things from my hubby's point of view. He says that I'm the problem. He says that I'm afraid to let anyone near me, especially him. And that I'm afraid of being loved. Well, I just see his "love" as false, a little too late.

Yesterday, he announced he's decided to take me to the beach for a weekend getaway next week. His mother, who has some very real depression and emotional issues, and is addicted to prescription drugs, is staying with us. The woman is already crying because I have to go to work everyday, and my husband works nights, and so she is alone. My husband's brother and sis-in-law live two doors down from us, but stay very much away from us since we started having troubles (they are mad at me), and will not let "Nana" in the house because she spills things and is so emotinally needy.

Okay, so my husband decideds he wants to leave my two kids, ages 12 and 3, with this woman for a weekend, and that if there is a problem, his brother and his wife will help out without being asked.

He got mad at me when I said I didn't want to go!! I don't want a thing from these people! I dispise all of them and, since Nana came to visit, have been daydreaming about being the guy on "Castaway." I blame her and all her baggage for the reason my husband is like he is, and and the bro and his wife are, well, rude and obnoxious on a good day! If I had a friend or a nearby family memeber who could watch the kids, I'd be all for this trip! But, I can foresee so many problems with leaving the kids and Nana while we go away overnight!

So, opinons? Am I wrong? Am I being mean? Hubby says I just don't want to try anymore. I love the ocean, I'd go to the beach with Saddam Hussain, much less have a romantic weekend with my husband. But, I just think there would be too much stress and fallout from leaving the kids.

Thanks, you'all for listening. I'm so glad I found this forum. Until Nana goes home the end of May, we can't go to counselling. (If you go out of the house, she has to go, too! Unless it's work, and then she cries cause you're leaving her)

Love and Blessings
Kayanna