I'm not sure how to tell my mom I wont be working or returning to school for awhile...in my family, neither of these options are acceptable...
However, I am in a bit of a financial crisis...the other day I had a total mental breakdown when DSHS called me back to say that...despite me not having any source of income, and being on the verge of being homeless, I still did not qualify for any assistance...However, yesterday I received a call telling me that I actually DO qualify as long as I am not a student...I am not working or going to school right now because both my therapist and my doctor told me to take some time off, to help treat my depression...so I am weighing taking time off to not only qualify for food and cash assistance, but to help get myself better versus me trying to put my depression aside and not disappoint my mom and family....in the end I decided that taking care of my health would be more beneficial in the long run. I am not sure how to explain this to her...Last quarter in school, I was struggling with Severe depression to the point where I was having panic attacks from trying to leave my home...one of my teachers was willing to work with me, the other...not so much...long story short, I lost my financial aid due to failing a class...despite me trying to work with the teacher and the school...I feel like I want to tell her, but every time I try I can't find the words...I know she will be angry and disappointed with me (I have never failed a class my entire life until this point)..and I am not sure if I can handle that...financially, I am not in the best place right now...but my boyfriend, whom I live with, has found a job and we will be caught up financially sometime in the next few months...but I feel like my mom will not understand this, and I hate to feel like I am disappointing her again....I lost my financial aid (for winter and spring quarter though, it's being suspended until next school year) and wouldn't be able to benefit from having some money come in from that anyways..And it's likely that if I WERE to try and push myself through school and work again, I would just continue having breakdowns and just fail another class....Any advice on how to handle this? I DONT want to cause a bunch of upset and drama within my family...but I feel if I tell the truth everything will be messed up and my family will be angry with me...