You are one amazing lady! The 'jump infront of the bus' feeling I relate to. Sometimes I'm tempted by the urge to cut open my back so the pain will seep out... But I can understand why you wont let it deter you tho, lastnight I danced till the cows came home, knowing full well my fibro was gonna kick me in the butt, I dont regret it 1 bit! You can do it hun, vacation is meant to be enjoyed! I'm thinking of you and pray you find some type of relief