I had new flashbacks over a month ago that I have never had before. They are disturbing to say the least. They are of a sexual nature involving my sister sexually abusing me. I have been doing a lot of inner child healing and discovered that when I was 14 I was sexually abused on a continual basis by my sister who was six years older at the time. I am male and it’s very disturbing to discover the things she did to me. She was the adult at the time and I was a child. I got a very strong message from her then that I am just as responsible for the ‘sexual encounters’. So in saying this she was trying to make me feel guilty if I tried to complain to my mother at the time.

Moreover, the nature of this abuse explains my adult sexual problems. I’ve connected the dots now. It explains why I’ve had so many problems with women in terms of enjoying sex and feeling good to be a man when with a woman. It just is very disturbing that this happened. I feel so sad for myself at this age as every other type of abuse was also done to me by the entire family also. I was in a hellish environment and had nowhere to turn since society had abandoned me.