When you're in the pits, it doesn't matter how many blessings you have---you feel like crap, and THEN you feel guilty because you feel like crap. After all, life is good.....what do you have to complain about when there are so many other people out there who are so much worse off?

The thing is, there is no answer to that---no logic to it at all. Depression doesn't have to have a reason for existing; it just does, and until such a time as it lifts, you're going to feel like crap. And there are no "trivial" struggles: everything looks like a mountain when you're so deep in the valley you can't even see your way out.

If you aren't already receiving help, please do so.....it doesn't have to be this way, at least not permanently. That's one of the few blessings I've found in being bipolar---I know that even depression doesn't last forever. But whatever you do, DON'T lose yourself in guilt over feeling bad despite your overall good fortune. It doesn't do any good and leaves you feeling even worse. Take care.