Hello and Welcome... I can only try to imagine how difficult it is for you to be here in a new country where everything is different and you don't really know anyone. I don't count your brother just because he sounds like a typical brother.. cruel to his sister...ignore him when he says stupid things like that.

I think you have been given sound advise concerning going to a school counselor. Try to let yourself believe there isn't anything wrong with needing someone. If there is something going on that could be resolved fairly easily, then think of how much peace you will feel.

Maybe you could try something I have found to be helpful to me.I write.. symptoms... concerns.. opinions of what is going on with myself... I compiled a list of things to give to a counselor.This opened up a dialogue without me having to actually try to say it all out loud.I have issues with being scrutinized, so in a way we have the same problem...asking for help...disclosing information about ourselves.

I'm sorry you have had to hide between classe.. i would have hoped someone would reach out to you and make you feel accepted and comfortable.... please know it is safe here.. you can be yourself.. share as much as you need to.. and maybe some of the lonliness will fade...feel free to pm me if you need to talk to someone.

Everything will be alright sweetheart... hang in there..