I am really sorry you are hurting. I would encourage you to speak with your T about all of this. If it is too difficult to talk about or too painful, please make a copy of your post and bring it to your T. It is soo incredibly important to focus on your health and well-being right now. I know it is really hard, but it is crucial for you to be surrounded by people IRL that you can rely on and are there for you. To regain your sense of trust in the world.

Please continue to post and let us know how you are doing.

Rose