Michelle, I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I feel the exact same way. School has been out for two weeks and I still have another week before the new semester starts, so I've got nothing to motivate me to get dressed and out of the house, or even do anything within the house.

I know that some people feel that you need to find the motivation within yourself, and not rely on others to motivate you, but I believe there's a point at which self-motivation can be an impossible task, at least until you become a little more stable. I'm somebody who hates to let others down or leave them waiting in anticipation, so what helps me is to make a plan to meet up with a friend, or even just somebody at a shop that I frequent. I usually have to do it at least a day in advance, because it's even harder to find motivation within the same day. Anyways, I usually try to shoot for early in the day, that way I'm already dressed and out of the house, and I still have the rest of the day available.

You could also try mini-accomplishments...so maybe set a goal of doing just 10 minutes worth of chores, and when that 10 minutes is up, you stop. You may have only done 10 minutes worth of work, but that's 10 minutes more than you would have done, and you also get the satisfaction of feeling like you accomplished something. So maybe tomorrow you could set your goal to get dressed, or spend so many hours out of bed, or better yet, set a goal of stepping outside your house to just admire the trees you said you enjoy. You could even take a picture of the tree and post it, so that we can hold you accountable for reaching your goal...just a thought.