All of a sudden in November I have been moving forward, I have gone out with friends, gone to work, moved into a new place, gone shopping, my perspective has even shifted. It scares the shiet out of me to be in a deep dark place for over a year consistantly, isolating, crying, not moving, feeling absolutly hopeless, etc to literally all of sudden throwing myself into life and keeping it going. I have ethier gotten back into my regular pattern of feeling great during the winter and spring and will shift back into a low pattern during the summer and fall like I was or compltely snapping last year may have broken that pattern because I didnt have the high last winter I stayed in a major depressive state until mid november 2012 just outta the blue.
weirdness..........

now granted I am not 100 % but I am definetly not in a "major" depressive statee right now!