When I read "when I have a day off work i cant get motivated" I thought I was reading something I posted and forgot I posted it!

I would go to work everyday (5 days a week), but that was pretty much it. The days I didn't work I was lucky if I showered. I would get up to get a drink, have a cig, get some munchies, take meds, thats about it. I would even put off paying bills and all I had to do was log onto thier website to pay the bill and I had the money to pay every bill! I would make appointments like the doctors, hair salon, etc. that I would usually jump outta bed for and I wouldnt even call to cancel or say I couldnt make it I just stopped showing up. I would make plans with friends and feel like such a shmuck for standing them up, youd be lucky to get a text message out of me, if I needed anything I would order it online or get my mom or dad to get it for me. I wouldnt even walk into a gas station. I cried everyday, got fired in May from a job I had for years for production errors! tried a new job cried everyday all day at the new job, lost that one for calling out. cry cry cry cry cry

Then whammo dunno what happend just woke up one day in November and said screw this, showed up for a job interview, moved out of the parents, went shopping, hiung out with friends, shower everyday almost twice a day, been like this ever since.......

just decided to change everything, got rid of clothes, moved, new bed, new stuff! I dont feel perfect but im definetly not as bad!