I was not diagnosed with ptsd but I get flash backs of stuff Ive seen and ive done,ill fill you in. ive been a volunteer firefighter for 4 years in march.ive been doing it since I was 16.just like my father(my father has nothing to do with whats wrong) and 2 summers ago the station I run with got called to a tractor trailer fir on an on ramp to the local high way, I just got back from summer school and I was kinda tired but I went anyway and I ran to the station as I did many times before and I remember it all like yesterday. Most of the trucks left.like our engine and tanker but our rescue was their. Its a rescue/pumper meaning it also carries water and hoses so I got my gear on and jumped in their and we went.We got their and I went to command and asked what they needed me to do as I have done many times before.Command told me get on a hose and attack the fire in the trailer so I did.I wasn't prepared I didn't have an air tank or mask but I did it anyway so I stayed their for 30 minutes and went to get my heart rate checked and after that I went to where the cad of the truck used to be and their laid the driver burnt to death.i still see the body. I helped pull him out after the had to cut his hand off at the wrist because the fiber glass melted it to pavement. we loaded him into a van and he went to the funeral home. I went to look for a passenger luckily their wasn't one.but it didn't bother me when I was their,now I cant see a burnt body on a movie without crying I cant get onto the highway were he burned without getting flash backs. how should I handle it?