Yup they were certainly all legal. The 19 yo was the youngest but even so that made me feel so so gross. If I had my time again I would not have gone there. Made me feel like a perverse old woman. I guess if Madonna can do it I can?! But still, ew. What was I thinking?

The weird thing I think with hypomania is at the time everything seems to make sense and seem right, it's only afterwards that you think otherwise. And sometimes that sends me into a downward spiral from hypomanic to depressed. At least now I realise there is a medical reason for that. But it does make things very confusing...