Because of the seriousness of your question, I've gone back & reed through you're earlier posts to get as complete a picture as I can of who you are. Unless you've changed greatly over the course of your time here at PsychCentral I don't see someone who is brutish and possibly a sociopath. You're certainly not a "people person" ... that goes without saying ...

You've been bullied, abused , and you've (I think) perhaps assumed the role of victim. Had you gotten the right kind of help, maybe you wouldn't have ended up feeling like a misfit. I think it's understandable that you don't like society and people in general, having been treated so horribly when you've tried to interact.

But I think it's as a misfit that you're responding, not a sociopath. You're angry, hateful even. I feel the same way in some contexts. I think you could talk to a gook therapist and come to understand these feelings, but maybe not change them a lot with more work. What do you want to do?