I have done a really good job of isolating myself the past 2 years, down to pretty much my immediate family. I feel like I've never really known how to make friends, be a friend, and feel very socially awkward. My husband does things with the neighborhood guys and talks with everyone around here, but I have kept myself apart. I don't answer the door or the phone (unless I know who it is and am not scared to talk to whoever it is). I've been making myself go to a support group to try to learn how to be more social, it's easier when you know they are dealing with the same crap. Just a little background.

Anyway, my neighbor called and wants to have coffee or lunch this friday (she left a message, I didn't answer the phone). I know I should go, I need to stop isolating and being with others will help. But, I am a nervous wreck. She knows I've been in the hospital and some of my details, but I'm not sure how much (I need to ask my husband) I'm afraid of what to talk about, afraid of not having boundaries. I want to be open, but not scare her off. I am also afraid of being her friend, for her sake. I'm not really reliable, have a lot of down times, and don't really think I can be understood.

Enough rambling... does anyone have any suggestions for conversation, how much to reveal (like should I let her know that I feel awkward?), and ways to keep my anxiety down. This seems like a "normal person" thing, and I want to try to be "normal".

Hope this doesn't sound too stupid!