south pole... "The weird thing I think with hypomania is at the time everything seems to make sense and seem right, it's only afterwards that you think otherwise."

I struggle with this in regards to hypo episodes also and I strongly believe many many people with bipolar do as well. Once we reach a certain point past the point of being able to recognize signs and symptoms, it's almost as if we are not in our right mind and we don't realize the damage or consequences until after our stint is over with. I really empathize with your struggles here. I can relate with all that you're saying and all I can do is say that I'm here to talk whenever and...