I feel so empty.. My body hurts and I don't want to get out of bed...

I can't tell what's changed...

I was diagnosed with bipolar before BPD... But that was because I experiences highs and lows etc, but like you say not so extreme as bipolar I realise now... Or at least not in the same way.
Since July though, and for the first time since I remember in my life, I didn't feel like someone living with a mental illness... I felt recovered...

Now I can't see any hope if it can just come back like this with no warning at any given moment, what's the point?