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Old Jan 02, 2013, 11:28 AM
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Originally Posted by belledisastre View Post
I'm honestly so sorry about your OCPD. I have OCD, but I know what it's like for your obsessions to take control of your life like that.
You honestly need to get it through your therapist's head that your OCPD is totally RUINING your life & that's what is mainly causing your depression. Say that you can make time to try to treat your depression, but that you'd like to focus on your OCPD since it is controlling your life. I mean, if you're suffering suicidal thoughts, then it may be a good idea for her to focus on those. But tell her that your OCPD is destroying your life and that you'd like for her to spend more time on that. Tell her that if you focus on those, and minimize your OCPD as much as possible, then your depression might fade a little bit as well. Don't worry about hurting her feelings; I'm sure she has heard a lot worse than just a patient asking her to focus on something.
I honestly wish you the best of luck and I'm sooo sorry that you're going through this. You're in my thoughts.
Thanks, I think I definitely need to speak with her. I feel she might be too apprehensive about help me with my OCPD since she is still learning the trade. I'm worried that she doesn't think it's worth her time. I only say that because as much as I say I need help with my perfectionism, I really just wish that the rest of the world would hold themselves to a higher standard. I think that's one of the big differences between OCD and OCPD...those with OCD are able to acknowledge that their obsessions are irrational, or go above a beyond typical worries, but with my OCPD, I honestly don't think that doing something perfect is wrong, in fact, I don't even see it as doing something perfect, I just see at is doing something the way it SHOULD be done (which means to the best of my ability). I do recognize that my perfectionism is the cause of my troubles, but somehow I can't get my brain to accept doing anything less than perfect work, so when the therapist from a previous semester asked me to limit how much time I spent on each slide (of a power point presentation), I wound up with totally incomplete slides - it's like I just can't seem to recognize when I am taking too much time on something. I think that may be why my current therapist has been "ignoring" my OCPD, it's probably not easy for her, or anybody, to think of how to help a person who can't see that what they are doing is unreasonable.
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