In jan last year I hit depression real bad. I was harming nearly every day. I felt nothing. Although I didn't want to die. I couldn't see away forward.

Then one day I just felt fine again. I stopped harming. Stopped my meds. And got me a job. Things were great.

I think it was start of August, my moods started to change again, not to depression but days of mood swings. Emptiness. Confusion and extreme anxiety. Not long after the harming started again.

And well I back here. I've now be diagnosed with BPD and for the past few weeks I'm yeah I'm happy, I don't need therapy!!

The thing is I do. And I will continue going.
Just remember the dark stages don't always last. Keep fighting thro it. You will find your "normal" place again.

You have us to help you thro ((hugs))