Firstly I might point out its 6 am, I haven't slept and I'm not tired! And I skipped 2 lots of meds this week.
But all I can think about is that maybe I'm not BP.
I know I definitely have depression, that much is obvious but I've been diagnosed bp2 so the hypomanias are not as obvious. And we're looking at 10 years ago since I've been on antidepressants.
I keep on thinking that the behaviour I had back then was probably fairly normal for a 20 year old college student - drinking, not sleeping, hypersexuality. The incident where I walked around the edge of the roof of a nine story building was normal elation due to meeting the guy of my dreams. I don't doubt that there was some mood instability, on antidepressants my mood was fluctuating a lot. But maybe I'm more of a med induced BP and all I need to do is stay off antidepressants. They didn't work anyway. I am being crazy or am I finally sane?