I'm constantly battling with my emotions. Do I allow myself to feel them or do I just let them slide away and never really acknowledge their existence? I tend to alternate between having stronger feelings (easily getting angry or frustrated, being saddened over small things, or feeling very happy) to deciding not to feel anything at all, numbing them out, almost trying very hard to make them non-existant.

I don't really understand why I do that, the thoughts tend to change behind the reasoning, but it does seem to alternate. Maybe it's to avoid hurt that can come along with them? That's why I turned them off when i was much younger, so I wouldn't have to deal with the hurt of being made fun of for being emotional.

What are your thoughts on feeling vs. not feeling? (along with all the other things I mentioned above)