Liv, i understand entirely.

you made some points i would like to talk about in your post..

You say that something recently has triggered a negative way of thinking. and that depression seems back and worse than it has been for 7 years, unfortunately with depression is that it can re-surface any time and hit us hard when we least expect it. although we may have dealt with the issues that were making us depressed, they can return several years on. its nothing to be afraid of, and dont consider yourself going backwards. you are progressing and it is time now for your body to once again deal with your issues. it is telling you that you are now ready and that you are strong enough. it will be scary. it will feel dangerous. but please remember that you have got through this once before and you are a stronger, better person now so you can survive it again.

you need to vent your anger Liv, otherwise it will build up and up and will eventually prove more fatal than if you vented when you need to. dont feel bad about yourself for this, although your friends wont understand sometimes, there are people who do understand. i am one of them. feel free to pm me if you need to ok, i understand what you are going through and i want to be here for you. just let me know ok.

therapy isnt for everyone. although it proves to be highly succesful to most people, there is still a large amount of people who dont find it helpful. sometimes we are stronger on our own. it varies frm person to person and you should never force yourself into it, especially if you know it upsets you and makes you ill. do what you need to do to help your self, you are the only person who knows these answers, so go with what your heart tells you to do.

i think, with memories such as yours, they need to be accepted. the problem with memories is that they are of things that happened, so you need to accept them and accept that these things happened. this is the first step towards salvation and once you have masterd this, things get easier. i know it is easier said than done but it is possible. if i can do it anyone can.

i talk to you today from experience. alot of what you talked about in this post is things i have felt, and even though i dont know your past, i know it must have been traumatic. but with people available for you to turn to that you know understand and that wont let you down, you can conquer this.

the offer is still open liv, i am here for you. i want you to know that you can vent as much as you feel the need to to me. i really dont mind. im here to help you and others, so if you need me, im just a pm away.

take care of yourself liv. and i hope to speak to you soon ok

simon