Dear T,

Thank you for salvaging my therapy by pulling out the art materials! I was so afraid you were really going to terminate me today! I'm sorry I'm frustrating you and making you discouraged. Yes, you've helped me a lot, and this is not a good time to stop. If the meds work, we'll be able to accomplish more. I'm not sure why you didn't recognize that today. I know that ethically, if you're not helping me, you have to suggest termination, but I'm not giving up, so why are you?

The art therapy is going to work, and so is the SE. I will be able to tolerate our relationship; it's just hard for me to give up what felt so good to me. I don't think you made a mistake; holding your hand felt safe and comforting in the past. I just wish you had told me you were "taking it away" instead of letting me figure that out by myself.

I felt more connected to you today. I like that you sat closer to me so I could see your eyes. I like that I could draw and color what I wanted to. I liked that you SAW my feelings emerge on the paper. I want you to know how I feel, and like I wrote, a picture is worth 1000 words. Sometimes, that is.

Thank you for the hug. You held me tighter than ever before. I noticed the difference and it meant a lot to me. I'm glad you're not stopping the hugs.

I'm glad I could feel connected to you and still have it be about me and my feelings of wanting to be held and loved. It's not really about you; I know that so well.

Love,
rainbow8