Hi! I had an interview and offer for a temporary assignment today! 12 weeks!! I'm so excited! My stomach feels really sick, though. I will journal tomorrow (tonight if I'm not too exhausted) and try to slow down the worries to look at them. My head's kinda spinning. I start Monday.

I.Am.The.End, I was too afraid to even go to my graduation. When it came down to it, I really needed a break from people. Then I had to use tools I know have helped before, like journalling/meditation/exercise/affirmations/reading about mental illness. I had to chip away at the big block in my brain for five months alone in a room before I could make my brain flexible enough to believe I could try for jobs. I still haven't applied or even looked for full time jobs in my field. One entry level clerical job, which I was qualified for 15 years ago with no school. Two temp volunteer jobs. And those are victories--really! I'm just trying bit by bit and trying everything I can to help myself.

I always wished there was someone to sit and listen to me complain about how hard it was and reassure me while I did applications. If you ever have that wish and think it will help you look for jobs, feel free to PM me!! Anything I can do to help.

Also, I'm bisexual and happy about it! But I think all queer people go through hard times figuring out their identity. But keep the label or chuck it: it's your life! Good luck on your dating endeavors. Always an adventure online!! Yes, it's harder if you don't post on anyone else's...it'll take a bit more time that way, but you're bound to meet someone!! Everyone likes musicians...I should know; I married one.

Hi shortandcute! Your name makes me smile!!

Two sons, I feel rotten if I have less than 9 hours of sleep. I think I feel less depressed, but more anxious. And my preferred sleeping time would be 1am-10am. Doesn't mean it's ideal...good luck shifting your schedule!

By the way, I'll have been on this site for five years in February and I lurked for two (I think) years before that. I only broke 100 posts last year, and just hit 254! It was just hard to post, to feel "seen" by people and exposed. I would regret what I did post and agonize over it. If I disappear for 6 months it's because I'm having trouble, not because I don't care. So I get where you're coming from, I think! I sure don't think you're unsupportive.

And speaking of worries about posting, sorry about all the novels. I just can't stop myself... My brain says if I explain something part-way someone might misunderstand me and get upset at me, so I have to keep explaining. Ugh, sorry!! Not that realistic, brain!!

Torn, yes, it's British Doctor Who. I get all but the latest season on Netflix online. Love it, but it's always so sad!! Good reminder that we can just post observations on the daily thread and don't have to feel obligated to respond or be supportive. Thanks! Is that one of the issues you've had with posting less lately? Or is it just the need to withdraw? Hope you're feeling better today. Take it easy on yourself!!