hi woods, sorry to hear you are low.

you dont have to pay for councilling/therapy at your age. i began councilling at the age of 16 and i am still going now, i am 19. i dont pay for it, it is a government funded thing. i am sure they are the same where you are, you just need to look into it. maybe try talking to your doctor, see what he/she thinks. there is the help out there for you.

parents sometimes dont understand the troubles we go through. they care about us so much that they refuse to believe we arent happy. they like to think everything is ok and try to convince themselves and us (their children) that things are ok. you do need to make them aware of how you feel. i dont know what the situation is with your brother but you are different to him im sure, so dont think you are just because your parents say so. you need help through this, and sometimes we cant get it from our parents, my dads the same. but we have to look elsewhere and it is there if we look hard enough.

in the meantime, if you need a shoulder to cry on or you just need a chat, i am here for you ok. we here at PC can help you through this and help you emerge a stronger, happier person.

and dont worry about school. your mental health is far more important than an education. an education can be "topped up" later on in life when needed, mental health cant.

take care of yourself.

simon