I wake up in the morning, get ready for work and act like everything is just fine but underneath it's burning, like when I was younger and I shut myself away in my room. I would isolate and not eat for days. When I did go out it was because I had to go to school and even then I would hide away in the bathroom. I was so scared and still am. I don't trust anyone. I have my good days but even then I can't really talk to my partner about what's going on with me and not because I don't want to or she wouldn't listen but because I'm always thinking I would just be a bother or I shouldn't be feeling that so I hide it. Which in the end makes things worse but I can't help it. I don't know where to turn and I can't afford counseling right now. I can barely afford my meds. I'm so stressed with working and all of the responsibilities. I just want to sleep. I don't have any friends. I just don't know where to start. If you know of any self help sites that would help with isolation and positive thinking that might help.